I don't understand this business about denouncing to start over. When you take your EA and your FC you take an obligation and make a promise to yourself and to God. You don't get "do-overs" with that, there is no reset button. There is no way to take that away from you and there is no way for you to give it back. You either are, or are not...there is no such thing as demotion and if you were raised and passed then that is that....if you don't know what that means, then maybe you should re-think whether or not you actually were raised and passed. I don't know you or your situation personally but it seems to me that if you really need sound advice and can not get this advice through your mother lodge, then you need to reach out to your Grand Lodge and advise them as to what is going on. If your lodge will not answer your questions, rest assured a just and lawfully constituted lodge WILL answer the inquiries of their Grand Lodge. From reading your many posts on the topic I wonder if the lodge is even a regular lodge? Either way, the answer lies with YOU to do the research and make the appropriate inquiries. Forgive me if I sound frustrated, I am really just trying to help but sometimes the best way to help someone is to help them help themselves. If you do decide to petition another lodge, please, in the name of honor and morality do not lie on your petition or to the new lodge...you will only be lying to yourself.....