This is the struggle one must face earlier than expected. To drive forward is wrong. To stop cold is wrong. There has to be an equalibrium found. This is one of the growing pains of being a true mason. The stakes are high. Fail to reach equalibrium and you fail your responsibilities to all. Remember your vows are not to interfer with your duty to God, your country, neighbor, or yourself. That plainly eludes to family and work.
Growth is not painless! It never will be. Listen to that conscious within. Like the hand of the Senior Warden, it will not steer you wrong.
God bless brother!